35. Attachments

Whether we admit it or not, it’s obvious that we often judge a book by its cover and that’s exactly what led me to reading another Rainbow Rowell novel. Attachments isn’t like Eleanor and Park. This is a more mature view on love, marriage, family, friendship, and fidelity rolled into one humorous, irresistible piece of literature.

Lincoln is your dreamy kind of guy, tall, broad and handsome. Very masculine. He’s strong-looking. Like the kind of guy you feel standing next to you before you actually see him, because he’s blocking so much ambient light. He’s 28 and very much available. He works for The Courier, IT Department. His job is to read flagged emails. Woah. ALTHOUGH HE DIDN'T LIKE THE IDEA - he feels like he’s invading their privacy - the company’s paying him a lot. LIKE A LOT. And that’s enough for him, until one night, he opens a flagged email from Jennifer to Beth. He didn't send them a warning, he was supposed to, somehow he finds them alluring and he just can’t stop... there’s something about Beth.

Beth is a movie critic. She has broad shoulders, and a high heavy chest. Smallish waist. Widish hips. A soft curve at the small of her back. So pretty. So more than pretty.

It was Beth who saw him first; she was attracted to him physically, so much that she even followed him home once. Hahahaha. WHAT INFATUATION CAN DO. She’s like the normal girl/lady/woman who will do everything just to have a glimpse of her crush, whose day won’t be complete without seeing her crush even just for a single second. I should know, I’ve done that for so many times and I’m pretty sure I’m going to do those crazy stuffs again. Yes to memories!!! Yay!!!

PS: when they first met, she thinks she saw fireworks... and roman candles. OMG FTW OH AND BTW she really isn’t available, she’s living in with a lead guitarist for years now but she just can’t give him (Lincoln) up. She can’t not have some(one)thing to look forward to.

Lincoln, he fell for Beth’s soul. Every time he reads her emails to her co-workers, he feels like he’s getting a sneak peek into who she really is... it’s like buying a ticket to a train, a free passes to the windows of her soul, the doors to her very core.

Attachments is also a light read, one thing I like about Rainbow Rowell actually, you can finish her novels in one seating and you can’t even dare to put it down even for a single minute because that would mean kind of missing a very single part of Lincoln and Beth’s love story. Theirs is a story you wouldn't think will ever get a chance. But love and fate really has their own way of sending two people to a place where they’ll usually reign no matter what. And that’s what happened to them, after everything they've been through, they somehow found their ways back to The Courier where it all started as just a mere twist of luck. 

Love,

M x

34. Eleanor and Park

Eleanor, also known as Big Red (she’s apparently a redhead), is the new “new girl” at Park’s school. I’m pretty sure everyone wants a newcomer to be a hottie, a total babe but Eleanor wasn’t that type – not even close. She was the total opposite. She was awkward and big. She wears clothes girls her age won’t even dare, like large men’s shirt + weird long necklaces + scarves around her wrists. Oh my!!! Fashion suicide... but it’s not like she has a choice because she clearly doesn’t have a single one. BECAUSE SHE’S NOT RICH BUT BROKE. Very. And there’s nothing she can do about that. Yet.

She lives in a tiny house, a block away from Park’s, with her siblings, their mother and their stepdad. Well, Eleanor doesn’t really think of him as her stepdad, they really aren’t close, not after what he did to her a year ago.

On her first day on her new school, she had Park as his seatmate on the bus. Again, she didn’t have a choice; nobody wants to sit beside her. Since then they’ve been seatmates.

Park is half Korean, half American. Her father went to Korea during world war; he met Mindy (Park’s mom) there and brought her home with him. Since then, they’ve been madly in love with each other. Park is so into reading and music. Those are the things they have in common.

One day, while Park was reading on the bus, he was so sure Eleanor was reading his comics as well. He didn’t want to be rude so he’d sometimes look up to her before he flips to the next page. And that’s how it all started...

A lot of things could really happen in a 20 or 30 minute ride on the bus. You could either hate the person forever or you could learn to get to know her, sometimes you’d fall in love with her soul and then you’ll get to see her differently. Like Park to Eleanor.

Park is a sweet, Asian kid. He thinks holding Eleanor’s hand is like holding a butterfly or a heartbeat. He doesn’t like Eleanor, he needs her. Eleanor, on the other hand, thinks he lives for Park. She isn’t even sure she still breathes when they’re apart.

Ahhhhhh!!!! It feels good to be young and in love...... but it’s another thing when you’re young but (not)free and very much in love. They were young but old enough to know that first love might never work but desperate and very much in love enough to try and work things out. I seriously hope they would eventually find their way back into a love that is innocent and true. My heart aches for Park.

Eleanor and Park is one of those books you’d love to read when it’s raining... because of the ending. (but you’ve gotta figure that out yourself, of course) It’s entertaining, very light but very full. It’s mainly about high school romance, how it starts and how it ends. If you miss your high school sweetheart, you’d want to spend a few hours reading this and I promise you, you won’t be disappointed. 

Love,

M x

33. This is What Happy Looks Like

If you want to take a day off from the very cruel summer heat, go to the nearest bookstore and grab this book!!! 

I loved The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight and since this is another Jennifer E. Smith novel, I just had that sudden impulse to find a copy, sit in a corner and just read. 

This is What Happy Looks Like is every teenage girl's dream...

a very popular young actor falls in love with a small town pretty girl (with a twist) + random things = love story. 

It all started when G accidentally sent an email to the wrong address. Apparently, the owner of that address was online so they exchanged emails for a bit. Then the next day, then the next day, then the next... Thing is, E didn't know it was G all along. She doesn't know what his name is, he doesn't know what her name is. 

This book also is like a ticket to a red carpet premiere into the lives of famous movie stars. We have this illusion that being a celebrity is the happiest thing in the world but reading from G's POV proves that there's so many disadvantages as to being the center of the public's eye -- and one is, the word privacy doesn't seem to exist anymore. G, being the most famous movie star, feels like nobody knows the real him except E and that even to his own family, he feels like a stranger.

Apparently, E isn't the typical teenage girl. She knows what her priorities are. She was basically unperturbed by stars in her town until she finds out who exactly her email buddy is. But the fact that she isn't a fan of his made her actions understandable and her character very likable. 

Nothing really serious happened in the whole story. It's just a very cute and sweet love story about two teenagers who, although they live in both ends of the world, found their way towards each other -- all because of an honest mistake. It's very realistic and I bet somewhere out there, this is actually happening. 

"She was thinking of those words they’d sent sailing across the country, each e-mail a kind of poem containing the very best versions of themselves. Maybe seeing him here was nothing more than a simple addendum to a conversation that had been going on for months now. If the time before she’d known him had been a kind of prelude, then maybe this was all just the postscript."

Love,

M x 

32. The Time Traveler's Wife

There are things in life that we simply can’t explain, not because we don’t want to but because we just can’t find the exact, appropriate set of words that will give these things such fair dealing. I guess what I’m trying to say is... love is love.

The Time Traveler’s Wife is a story about a little girl’s faith in the most powerful word I know, love. She was just playing in the meadow when a man appeared in the clearing. She was scared but she helped him. He said he’s a time traveler  she didn't know what to do, she didn't know whether to believe him or not but she listened... she listened to what he was saying. The man kept on appearing, always naked; she made it a point to always leave a box full of clothing and food. She was falling in love with the man who was old enough to be her father.

One time, she went to a slumber party. Her friends decided to play on the Ouija board and when it was Clare’s time to ask, the Ouija said his name’s Henry, her husband.

From then on, she’s been waiting for the right moment, the chance to finally meet the man she’ll spend the rest of her life with...

Somehow, right in the middle of an ordinary life, you find yourself a fairy-tale worth sharing. This is Clare’s fairy-tale.  She went through a very overwhelming, crazy roller-coaster ride with Henry and she knew things might go the wrong way but she didn't care, she chose to step inside and enjoy the ride. She just wants to spend the rest of her life with the man she adores, the man she loves. Theirs is a love that can withstand the test of time.

Love can be very tricky at times. You’ll never know when it'll hit you or how but once it finds its way to you, there’s nothing you can do. The road may be a little rocky, the cliff may be a little too high but the thing is, you just have to take a leap. You just have to have faith in fate. Take a chance. It feels so good to be in love and be loved but if it’ll never work out like Henry and Clare's? Who cares, right? It’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved, after all.

“There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable. I love. I have loved. I will love.” 

Love,

M x

31. The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Again, I've heard very good reviews about the movie so I just had to read it and explore the very core of Charlie's world.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower has to be one of those books one could really relate to. It's very realistic, insightful and poignant. 

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

Charlie needs a friend who'll listen to him and he found his friend in the company of a few paper, a pen, a random address and a mailbox. 

While Charlie isn't really the exact role model, he is such a proof that being different is okay. That you can still make a difference. "We are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose wherever we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."

We may not be as gifted as Charlie (I also think he's kind of weak, sorry) but I know deep within us is a wallflower. We're just a bit lucky on the guts department. People often say you can never really understand a person until you walk in their shoes but I beg to disagree because I strongly believe that you can understand someone IF you really try to understand wholeheartedly. There's a big difference between understanding and "just" understanding for the sake of understanding. 

I must say - Stephen Chbosky is a wonderful storyteller. He made sure you can feel every character of the story. It's like you've known the characters all your life and that's one of the reasons why I so like the book. I know it's kind of a sad book but the happiness you feel as you witness a blooming flower is priceless. 

Dear Charlie, 

I am very happy that you've surpassed such an ordeal. Continue to be unconsciously strong and unflinchingly accepting to things you cannot alter. Thank you for the cute mix tapes, the fair share of literature and those little nothings that I wrote in my planner which I can rely on to further my mental wellness. Given the chance, I'd love to be your friend. 

Love always,

M x

30. Safe Haven

I am not really a Nicholas Sparks fan but since I've been reading a lot about how great the movie was, I just had to read the book and figure out why. 

PS: this is my first Nicholas Sparks book. Ever. 

A Walk to Remember is one of my all-time favorite movies but I haven't read the book :( (but I will before the month ends) :) So I really don't have any idea, I don't know what to expect from Sparks.

I like this book, I enjoyed it not because I'm a hopeless romantic (a part of me will always be haha) but because it talks about a woman's courage and strength, a woman's drive to self-preservation, a woman's commitment to happiness.

Apparently, Katie (Erin)'s been through a lot when she was with Kevin, physically and emotionally. After everything she's been through, she deserves just the best. She deserves to be happy. She deserves to be with a man who loves her so much, unconditionally. 

Oh and my goodness... the ending gave me goosebumps for about a solid minute. I didn't see that coming. It's amazing what love can do. 

If you're trapped inside a very unhealthy married life, read this.

If you're scarred and lonely, read this.

If you want to find your way back into love, read this.

Love,

M x

I am getting married. Not.

(c) google images

It's a known fact that I stay up too late, 5 am... 6 am.......  7 am.... it depends. I never sleep before 4 am. I don't know why and I don't know how I can possibly change my troubled body clock. Huhuhu. 

Well anyways, because of this and because of the occasion (yesterday, April 1) a thought crossed my mind... so I grabbed my phone and typed a short text message, sent it to some of my friends and went to bed. I woke up a few hours later... (because Zoe was scheduled for a check-up at 10 am and that's another story haha) Going back, I had a number of unread messages waiting for me when I went home from the clinic. Some were happy and congratulated me, some couldn't believe it, some were curious. 

WHY??? Because what my message was...

" I am very much in love and... I am getting married!!! Details soon. <3"

Hahahahahaha. =)) But you see guys, yesterday was the 1st of April and that means........... APRIL FOOLS DAY!!! Haha. Yeah. As much as I want to be so in love and engaged, I am not. I am so not. And even if I am, there's no way I'm getting married so soon. I believe I'm still too young for that crap, I still have so many things in mind. I still want to be a travel blogger and a food blogger, all at once. Hahahaha.

Again, I am not engaged to be married. Not soon, not in the next 5 years. I am single, not in a relationship. PLUS I have yet to find my way back into love. Again.

To the ones I got fooled, thank you. I wasn't sure it's gonna be believable but you've proven me otherwise. Haha. And I'm sorry, for getting your hopes high. I know you just want me to find someone I'll share forever with and to not be bitter about everything love-related but the thing is, I'm just not ready yet and of course, no matter how mainstream this is, I just haven't found my prince yet. Choz.

I had a good April Fools (minus the very stressful morning) :> How was yours? I hope you had fun fooling around. Til next year!!! 

Love,

M x